Ouverture

on liminal issues

‘Blob’

nota
Blob,General

Leo was super annoyed that Dribbble is by-invitation-only. I was anxious, and delighted, and super-jealous.

We want invitations so much that it hurts.

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Blob,General

The One

The entire set would include one bottle of white ink, a special refillable marker, a suspension device, proper adhesives and of course one slate. This is a project in progress and I have no certain idea when it would be done. The image is computed and should not be taken as an actual photograph.

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Blob,Flux,General,Lumination

Dialect # nnn, nnn

最近很常哭,原因不明。如果我相信並非所有的事情,都有人能理解的原因,那我就會更開朗。

而或許我又懂了到底生氣的是什麼……「抱歉我水準不好」一類的用字,簡單地翻譯就會變成「我程度不夠,所以拿這爛東西給你看,純屬遊戲,請不要介意」--而不是「我已經做到己所能的最好,希望你可以指點如何能更好些」。唉,拿自己的不足當作擋箭牌?

其實只是失去了不小心跌倒之後爬起來的權利而已。我渴望的是從書寫,從更多的概念的實體化之中,得到一份永遠的安定的救贖……而這不可能,因為救贖需要靠更多的人。

Upwards, upwards

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Blob,General,Illustration

Love and Love Sweetness

Update to Reflection

Well, isn’t it more interesting to be politically incorrect.

The creation of such project is to stimulate interpersonal interactivity. And yes so be it stated as my own comment presented. However we all understand and acknowledge that even though Paula Scher (of Pentagram) created the Citibank logo on a piece of napkin just like Feynman (or, feyn-man) does with his physics, it would not work as a good comment to the ubiquitous, obnoxious inquiries on “how you made it”, and convincing the client is of more hassle than it takes to create something that actually works. The corporate clients, or dubbed “rich, bourgeois bubbleheads” usually would not pay for the work but for the process since they were mundane, hard-working, relentlessly ignorant to the true value and meanings behind aesthetics and the humanities, and could see only time taken — equivalent to the intensity of labor deposited in a piece of work — as the decisive factor of any creation. My offense to those stuck in this sistema: if you were offended, you do not belong there.

The creation of this project is based purely, instinctively, definitely, positively on the fear of solitude. I enjoy elective solitude — but in a better way I’d say that what I really enjoyed would be a hassle-free lifestyle, or a way of life that does not call another way of life to balance itself just like Koyaanisqatsi. I would be thrilled to be in control of my own life, therefore I envy and abhor the lack of interpersonal communication, despite the very true fact that has been proven many, many times over in every single literary epic, classics and unclassified or even unclassifiable books, that true friends and fellowships, in which spiritual freedom could be obtained, perhaps across such little time-slice, are rare. I want to be in total control in my own life and fear of losing it, and that is the major single reason that I’ve created this project. It was not initially conceptualized by a grand or even avant-garde goal to “connect different people across the world”. Such great themes are not suitable for us the minor, dreaming, gypsyish, nomadic vagrants. We were more bound to be conceptualized as the unfortunate underdogs for fortune, the unreachable goal at least to us, is the very deep well of disgust, agony and insensitiveness.

I hereby declare the death of the author — or precisely, the death of the author’s voice a faked cultural blow. The purposed death of the author’s voice was no more than a few whines of the underdog who could not understand that particular voice. Of course, we would love to whine as underdogs and bark the majority — trash, detriti, urban legends, dire kerning, dirty tracking, idiotic coloring, excessive pinning — away for good. Design is a combat against the ugliness of the world, and to believe in one goal in order to concatenate our forces and eradicate, or even educate the lonesome vibe out of peoples’ head, we would declare an universal rule of aesthetics. And then, we would become the majority, applauded for our incarnation and our true metamorphoses into demigods — and, catch some freedom, despite the very true fact that we immobilized ourselves in such circumstance… At last!

It was said…

… that every single man or woman is a star. Put the Ls, Gs, Bs and Ts in the sentence and it would be politically perfect. (Screw it for its own sake.)

I would very much prefer creating objects and ideas rather than simply consolidating them.

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Blob

隨便亂講

踏入這個學校本身不算是個錯誤,遇見幾位( <4 )很棒的導師是完全正確的事情。然而操弄商業藝術邏輯的詩人教師、凡事講求策略的參考書作者……其實也所在多有。看得見與看不見的問題。放棄思考的話就會很快樂。只要也放棄記憶的話。不然一定是得痛苦的,這種或者那種。至於 Freelance 其實跟賣淫差不多。都出賣肉體、時間、勞力、心靈。只要不喜歡的話,工作都是差不多的我想。任何的 higher call 本身都需要艱苦剛毅地抵死過活。而更糟糕的是當東西變好以後 ego 通常會膨脹三倍,然後被戳一下爆裂以後剩下一半的體積。我把很多記憶,悉數扔進 OS X 的軟體裡。Mail 的全文搜索,或者電話簿。或者行事曆。又或者 Google。大腦只負責記憶當下相關與真正(主觀)重要的東西。這是真正的解放之路,我猜。但瑣碎的集合也是漂亮的。

身體不舒服但要繼續畫草稿。只要對自己足夠誠實,期待的東西會自動出現。不期待就沒有落空的機會。降靈以前要進入恍惚的狀態。同理,創作時要保持絕對的乾淨與誠實。至於「老爺子交了錢」的作物嘛……就算出賣靈魂也要斷得乾淨。簡單小比較:爛東西一個月二十個,一天搞定一個下班,隨便亂弄,只是不簽名。或者好的東西,一個月弄一個。並且以此為自己的識別。哪個好很容易看出來。但是哪個容易?相對來講,笨蛋的 $1 跟非笨蛋的 $1 是一樣的,也都可以買到麵包。但我選擇尊重自己的生命。非死到臨頭,不弄出垃圾。

要把自己打包起來,分片賣掉。這樣活著,並努力說服自己如此並不會喪失整體性。還不簡單,不要做爛東西,也不要想。就好。